Sunday, April 3, 2022

Home

 

HomeHome by Marilynne Robinson
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Home tells Gilead's story from another point of view. First, Robinson is amazing in how she is able to change the tone and nuance of her writing to reflect another point of view. While I missed Ames' rambling, here we get Jack's sisters point of view in a third person narrator. We see through her eyes what Jack has done, why he says he has come home, and what he goes through to try to redeem himself. Having read Gilead first it is interesting to see things from another perspective--fit the pieces in, if you will. Although there are no new real surprises, the trajectory of this prodigal son told from the viewpoint of a sister who desperately wants to help him, a father who loves so much he actually forgives him of things he hasn't done, and a son who wants to come home so badly, but even at home, he cannot find peace. Boughten is no Ames--he is emotionally tied up with his son, cannot separate his shame from his son's sins, and is maybe too old to struggle against his better half anymore. So reconciliation is hampered by fear and guilt and an inability for either of them to truly say what's on their mind. I may have to read it another time to get the same thoughtfulness and joy out of this novel. While I liked seeing the other side, it felt a little too long and drawn out, and like it was treading the same ground several times. It's also not as hopeful as Gilead.

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There is a saying that to understand is to forgive, but this is an error, so Papa used to say.  You must forgive in order to understand.  Until you forgive, you defend yourself against the possibility of understanding. 

Worry or bitter or bewildered as we may be, God is faithful.  He lets us wander so we will know what it means to come home. 

Gilead

GileadGilead by Marilynne Robinson
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I read this ten years ago, but wanted to read Lila and Jack, so I returned to Gilead. Honestly, I thought it was Home I had read before, and so started reading Gilead as though I had never read it. Yet, at almost each paragraph, I remembered reading it and the thoughts I had when I read it then, yet for the life of me, I couldn't remember what was going to happen next, so I was remembering and discovering at the same time. Reading my last review, I apparently read it twice then. So technically this is my third time and I added a star. I fell in love with the good reverend John Ames and his quiet pondering and strivings to do right despite his natural inclinations. He has feelings of fear for his little family whom he feels he will leave sooner than later, and those devolve into feelings of jealousy and contempt really for his friend's son that has come home. The son is notorious and has done some cruel things but is looking now for a shred of faith and looking to Ames to supply it. Ames struggles to let this young man repent of his sins, especially if that means he will enjoy a life Ames is done living. It is so beautifully written. and the characters so well drawn. I suppose it might not recommend it that I could not remember I read it, but I did remember that Robinson was a great author and I look forward to the other Gilead novels.

(2011) As I was carrying this book around forever trying to finish it, I told everyone it was eh, ok. It was a story without much of a plot, just a lot of ruminations about religion, faith, forgiveness, and it was murder to get through. But then I finished it and I thought there were a few good quotes that I wanted to re-read, and I ended up reading the whole thing again. The whole thing. It isn't a book that excites you, it definitely is not a page turner, but the letter by a dying priest to his young son born in his old age is full of gems of wisdom. The themes of the prodigal son resonate throughout--what it means to be a son in need of forgiveness, what it means to be a loving father, what it means to be the righteous son feeling unjustly looked over. In the end, it culminates into a beautiful story of what it means to love and to live. If you can barely get through it the first time, read it again.

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You can know a thing to death and be for all purposes completely ignorant of it.  A man can know his father, or his son, and there might still be nothing between them but loyalty and love and mutual incomprehension.

You two were too intent not he cat to see the celestial consequences of your worldly endeavors.

Ludwig Feurbach says a wonderful thing about baptism.  I have it marked.  He says, "Water is the purest, clearest of liquids, in virtue of this its natural character is the image of the spotless nature of the Divine Spirit.  In short, water has a significance in itself, as water, it is on account of its natural quality that it is consecrated and selected as the vehicle of the Holy Spirit.  So far there lies the foundation of Baptism a beautiful, profound natural significance."

It seems to me some people just go around looking to get their faith unsettled.

my father was in the attic or the woodshed, in some hidden, quiet place, down on his knows wondering to the Lord what it was that was being asked of him. (Abraham).

water was made primarily for blessing, and only secondarily for growing vegetables or doing the wash.  I wish I had paid more attention to it.  My list of regrets may seem unusual, but who can know what they are, really.  This is an interesting planet.  It deserves all the attention you can give it. 

"The full soul loatheth an honeycomb; but to the hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet"

There was the feeling of a weight of light--pressing the damp out of the grass and pressing the smell of sour old sap out of the boards on the porch floor and burdening even the trees a little as a late snow would do. 

when I speak of the long night that preceded these days of my happiness, I do not remember grief and loneliness so much as I do peace and comfort--grief, but never without comfort; loneliness, but never without peace.  Almost never.

I believe there are visions that come to us only in memory, in retrospect.

"Never mind," he said, "there's nothing cleaner than ash."  But it affected the taste of that biscuit, which I thought might resemble the bread of affliction, which was often mentioned in hose days, though it's rather forgotten now.

wonderful weariness of the arms.

When you encounter another person, when you have dealings with anyone at all, it is as if a question is being put to you.  So you must think, What is the Lord asking of me in this moment, in this situation?

If you confront an insult or antagonism, your first impulse will be to respond in kind.  But if you think, as it were, This is an emissary sent from the Lord, and some benefit is intended for me, first of all the occasion to demonstrate my faithfulness, the chance to show that I do in some small degree participate in the grace that saved me, you are free to act otherwise than as circumstances would seem to dictate. You are free to act by your own lights.  Your are freed at the same time of the impulse to hate or resent that person.

It is a s though there were a hoard of quiet in that room, as if any silence that ever entered that room stayed in it.

His name is set apart.  It is sacred (which I take to be a reflection of the sacredness of the Word, the creative utterance which is not of a kind with other language).

It seems to me almost a retelling of Creation--First there is the Lord, then the Word, then the Day, then the Man and Woman--and after that Cain and Abel--Thou shalt not kill--and all the sins recorded in those prohibitions, just as crimes are recorded in the laws against them.

not deciding to act would be identical with deciding not to act.  If I were to put deciding not act at one end of a continuum of possibility and deciding to act at the other end, the whole intervening space would be given over to not deciding, which would mean not acting.

nothing true can be said about God from a posture of defense.

I don't know exactly what covets is, but in my experience it is not so much desiring someone else's virtue or happiness as rejecting it, taking offense at the beauty of it.

In every important way we are such secrets from each other, and I do believe that there is a separate language in each of us, also a separate aesthetics and a separate jurisprudence. 

we all do live in the ruins of the lives of other generations.

Wherever you turn your eyes the world can shine like transfiguration.



Monday, March 28, 2022

Sisters of War

 

Sisters of the War: Two Remarkable True Stories of Survival and Hope in Syria (Scholastic Focus)Sisters of the War: Two Remarkable True Stories of Survival and Hope in Syria by Rania Abouzeid
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I really wanted to like this. It's an intimate account of two families living through the war in Syria. They live in different communities, with different loyalties and beliefs so it highlights just how devestasting war can be to all involved. There are some harrowing experiences and when you think they are happening to young children, they are devastating. My main critique is that this is as dry as the desert. There are pages explaining all the factions and background, which I found useful, but plodding. But as this is written for middle schoolers, I would doubt any of them would get past that to the stories that help them sympathize with kids their age in Syria. And the documentary style even those stories are presented in make it more clinical than emotional. It is an important story with a good idea, but executed poorly for the audience it's intended for.

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Becoming Mrs. Lewis

 

Becoming Mrs. LewisBecoming Mrs. Lewis by Patti Callahan
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This was obviously a well-researched fictionalized biography. I admire Joy Davidman's (Gresham) drive to be a writer. She didn't let anything stop her--her health, her husband, even poor reception of her work. She also seemed to doggedly pursue Lewis. I don't know if its the portrayal or Joy herself, but I didn't particularly like the character. Her spirituality which seemed to draw her and Jack together felt less than authentic, and it was hard to think a woman would leave her kids with a man she doesn't trust and in dire financial circumstances to go and get well writing in Europe. But C.S. did write a lovely book about how much he missed her and loved her after she had passed, so I'm guessing I'm missing some vital part of her personality.

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Sometimes we ache for what is familiar even though there is something better out there for us.

Station Eleven 2



Station ElevenStation Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Reread this because of the HBO adaptation. Both the book and the series are lovely in their own way, although their messages, I felt were different. Having read this now in terms of having experienced a world-wide epidemic, I definitely felt the emphasis on living in the moment, of appreciating the wonders of the world we live in, and the feeling of abandonment, loneliness, and residency of those left behind. The television series added several scenes and its themes seem to revolve around the inter-web of human interaction, how we rely and help each other, and how patterns repeat themselves. Although, both mediums had high points, I think the book still edged out the tv show--the show had more of a climax, but also a lot of inconsistencies.

It has a vague title. It has pictures of tents on the front. It is also a National Book Award Finalist and has been on several "best of" lists. But it is about an apocalyptic event, and haven't we all read enough of those? But wait, this one is different-- it is about a group of traveling Shakespeare actors and musicians. Yeah, sorry, that's not really going to help your end-of-the-world mailaise. But when the kindle version went on sale, I grabbed it because I have read worse for more. And I loved it. It's not really about the struggle of survival, or about the establishment of new societies, but about how we appreciate what we have. Are we doing what we want to do or are we in a holding pattern waiting for someone or something before we live the life we want? If it were to end tomorrow what would we regret? Or not? What or whom do we take for granted?
The writing was perfect. The characters came alive. The pacing was great. Very little swearing or violence. No sex. Recommend for everyone.

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margarine light

hell is the absence of the people you long for.

What I mean to say is, the more you remember, the more you've lost.

Tuesday, March 8, 2022

before / after

 before / after


    a point in the line of time 

    so dark it draws the eye

    a shudder of a door slammed 

    so hard the portraits fall

    a slash and burn

    so complete the inferno devours itself

    the edge of a razor

    so sharp it eviscerates whole words

not normal / normal

     unthinkable / thinkable

     intolerable / tolerable

    it creates an alien world that looks

    uncannily familiar

maybe not better / maybe not worse

but definitely, definitively

  different

those two f’s like parallel lines (parallel worlds)

      like two daggers, tips pointed down

    warriors’ hands on hilts

     blades not unsheathed

    but ready

Friday, March 4, 2022

Mexican Gothic

 

Mexican GothicMexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

For a horror book, this hits all the right notes. The atmosphere is lush and claustrophobic and the time period adds just the right amount of glitz. The repeating symbols and motifs foretell what is to come and the lucid dreams keep the reader questioning reality as much as its characters do. The underlying messages of racism and sexism are blatant but don't detract from the message that bigotry is ultimately as much a prison for the perpetrator as the victims. Of course, it climaxes with spectacular super-natural events.

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