Tuesday, November 18, 2025

 

Group: How One Therapist and a Circle of Strangers Saved My LifeGroup: How One Therapist and a Circle of Strangers Saved My Life by Christie Tate
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

DNF. Memoirs are hard to rate, since they are simply a person's experiences, and how can you rate that? However, I have issues with the fact that this was written as a testament to the power of group therapy. Tate's life does seem to gradually trend upwards (I quit at 60% but read the "10 years later"), but at 60% she still hadn't reflected on WHY or HOW group therapy was helping her. Her reverence for her therapist was disturbing to me--she tended to base her actions on what she thought her therapist would say or do. And also, I don't think her recounting all the debasing and humiliating things that she did or had happen to her is necessarily brave or enlightening; especially since she didn't seem to give the same emphasis to her improvements or accomplishments. I'm glad she found something she thought helped her, but neither group therapy nor this book was for me.

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Between Two Fires

Between Two Fires: Truth, Ambition, and Compromise in Putin's RussiaBetween Two Fires: Truth, Ambition, and Compromise in Putin's Russia by Joshua Yaffa
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This was a compulsively interesting portrait of how a people live under a heavy handed dictatorship. Yaffa travels through time by highlighting the lives of several Russians, mainly artists, humanitarians, and religious leaders and the compromises they felt they had to make (or the consequences of not making them) to allow them to continue to create art, help people, or otherwise function in a society where the government is the ultimate authority, and the consequences are powerlessness, imprisonment, or even death. Yaffa names the people who find a way to exist in a society that calls for the compromise their principles in order to function and even exist as "wily" and seems to indicate that it is unique to the Russian people. Perhaps that way of living has become second nature in a nation where such oppression has been the norm for so long and it is disheartening to read the interviews with young people who feel this way of living is fine and normal, but I think most people would rationalize their principles in the face of such dire consequences, especially when they could justify that such actions were for the greater good. Living in a country founded on freedoms of speech, religion, the press, etc. I hope we continue to fight for our rights.

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It began as a survival mechanism, in which citizen and state subconsciously worked together to ensure that the individual took agency in stifling his own freedom and chances for self-realization.

This was not especially fervent loyalty, but rather passive acquiescence, made palatable by all the ways a person could outsmart the system and eke out small, private victories against it.

The citizen was again making do, adjusting to the rules of the game rather than looking to effect change.

Levada worried that its fall was an outcome that came about too easily for the average citizen, an effective revolution that didn’t require anything revolutionary at all from most people. It was an event that happened to individuals, not one made by them—and thus could be internalized as yet another imposition from above.

The Russian wily man, Levada wrote, “not only tolerates deception, but is willing to be deceived, and even… requires self-deception for the sake of his own self-preservation.”

Given weak levels of social bonds and underdeveloped institutions, the wily man is ultimately alone, which leads to a paradox of Russian life that goes back generations: “If a person is forced to carry himself like everyone else, and to demonstrate this publicly, he frees himself from responsibility for those shared positions—but that doesn’t mean he has gotten rid of this basic loneliness in relation to everyone else.” Freedom from responsibility provides the illusion of freedom itself.

THE RUSSIAN LANGUAGE HAS an especially rich word for a person skilled in the act of compromise and adaptation, who intuitively understands what is expected of him and adjusts his beliefs and conduct accordingly: prisposoblenets.

Dovlatov’s 1981 book The Compromise

For Orwell, the telling of “deliberate lies while genuinely believing in them” is a way of staying sane, an effort at retaining a sense of individual will—

One could not live in ignorance or indifference to the urges and caprices of the state; in fact, it was to your advantage to guess what it wanted from you, and to deliver that while also being clever enough to extract some benefit for yourself.

“Many of them never made a conscious decision,” he told me. “It was more of a psychological process—they simply got tired of being afraid.”

on one path lies danger and hardship for you and your family; the other beguiles with a measure of comfort and access—and maybe, you tell yourself, even a measure of influence, a small lever to make life in Chechnya a bit better here and there.

Orthodoxy allowed for a nationalist ideology that venerated the Russian state without the mothballed, inoperable rhetoric of Communism.

He thought of them as reminiscent of holy fools, peculiar figures in Orthodoxy who are known to commit grotesque and provocative acts and are first judged as hooligans or madmen, but after their deaths are revealed to have been saints all along.

“This is the terrible sin of Patriarch Kirill,” Kuraev explained. “He legalized the right to hate.

The message was clear: to act out against Putin is to act against the church, and vice versa. Each institution will defend the interests of the other.

demanding ever-less spiritual effort from parishioners, that they had lost the voice of clarity and truth, and instead spoke in terms of rituals and obedience.

He saw the church as fueled by the same cocktail of fear and self-interest as Yuri Levada’s wily man.

Sergei Chapnin, editor of the official journal of the patriarchate, lamented that the Russian Orthodox Church has become a “Church of Empire,” a “post-Soviet civil religion providing ideological support for the Russian state.”

church emphasizes “Russian saints and Russian greatness; we care about being a patriot.” At the same time, Chapnin said, “we somehow forget the Gospel, and Christ himself isn’t quite so necessary.”

Russia is among the only countries in Europe where the outward manifestation of Christian faith is growing, rather than retreating.

the West is not only a geopolitical foe, but a spiritual one,

Ukraine developed its modern national identity in part by rejecting the Soviet past,

That changed with the Maidan. The protests caused not only a political rupture in Ukraine, but a cultural and civic one.

“We must live to see those times in a way that does not make us blush, so that we have nothing to be ashamed of in how we passed these years,” Dzhepparov said.

“If the Nazi Holocaust exterminated the Other, the Soviet terror was suicidal,” notes Alexander Etkind, a professor at Cambridge University, in Warped Mourning,

the Soviet Union, people were killed or imprisoned for reasons that did not comport with observable reality. As Etkind notes, a Jew caught in the Holocaust understood himself as a Jew; he recognized the category and his belonging to it, even if he obviously did not find this a reason to exterminate him. But who was a kulak, an enemy of the people, a counterrevolutionary element?

After the Soviet collapse, freedom had descended on the country too effortlessly, and wasn’t appreciated or understood.

somehow, the Stalinist machine produced millions of victims but no criminals.

with no settled, mutually accepted version of the country’s history, any attempt to come up with one was, by definition, a political gesture.

Not entirely unlike Heda Saratova, Glinka was in the ironic position of relying on the state to help those who, in some sense, were victimized by that very same state.

moral value of helping a person in need trumped how that help might be obtained. I

Putin’s response—turning to a new ruling ideology that blended conservative values, anti-Western resentment, disdain for urban elites, and an elevation of the Orthodox Church—

be a functioning adult in the world, we all must balance competing sets of expectations and pressures with our own understanding of self.

is the singular role of the state that gives this dynamic, otherwise perfectly relatable and universal, its particular Russian tinge.

Putin is more likely to be replaced in a coup from above than a revolution from below.

“A growing part of society is developing civic consciousness as a result of nonpolitical conflicts in which entities supported by the authorities intrude into ordinary people’s private space.”

Monday, November 10, 2025

The Jane Austen Society

 

The Jane Austen Society (Jane Austen Society #1)The Jane Austen Society by Natalie Jenner
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I really do enjoy Jane Austen, but I am not a superfan-- I can't quote her and I don't read her every year. Perhaps you have to be the latter to really enjoy this ode to Austen. A eclectic group of fans in Chawton, just after WWII band together to save Austen's legacy. They have all been inspired and consoled by Austen and as they work through legal paperwork and personal problems, they grow closer and help each other out. They quote Austen regularly and argue motivations of characters, which is interesting (but would have been more if I was a superfan and could recall every character like they do). But it is a plodding novel, that deals too much in the minutiae of the Society--calling meetings to order, who voted and who didn't, etc. --which I bore because I thought this was based on a real Society--but although the Austen home is preserved in Chawton, the Society and its members are also fictionalized. The story was not compelling enough to be entirely fictional in my opinion. But if you are a Jane superfan, or enjoy mild small town drama maybe you will enjoy this.

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Here One Moment

 

Here One MomentHere One Moment by Liane Moriarty
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I used to love everything Liane Moriarty wrote, and I don't know if I changed, or if she did. This book was ok. I also really like exploring the idea of feeling that there is a plan for each of us, that things happen for a reason, but how it can get twisted with ideas of fate, and the feeling that there is no choice. This book explored that and I especially liked that she focused on the choices each passenger made because of this "knowledge" they received about how and when they would die. But maybe it was the number of characters that were involved, I never felt like I was fully invested in any one of them. And they seemed a lot like the same characters in Nine Perfect Strangers (which I didn't read but attempted to watch and gave up because it was terrible). An interesting premise, but maybe I was expecting too much, because I was ultimately underwhelmed.

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Because the moment I do, you change your behavior.  You're no longer the same person you were a moment before.  See the logic?  So--all I can do is interpret the cards to help you see possible paths.

Chaos theory is the idea that a tiny change now can result ina large change later

Gödel's "incompleteness theorem" which states that in any reasonable mathematical system there will always be true statements that cannot be proved.

If you tell yourself you're going to unhappy you will be!  You can choose how to see your future!


Thursday, November 6, 2025

Elatsoe

Elatsoe (Elatsoe, #1)Elatsoe by Darcie Little Badger
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

A highly imaginative story of an indigenous Indian girl who can raise the dead, though she limits herself to animals because there is a darkness to the power that must be controlled. This YA novel tackles issues such as grief, love, family, race and class. She has a healthy friendship with her best friend Jay, who enthusiastically supports her, and she has a ghost dog that can appear on demand and howl incredibly loudly. She occupies a slightly different America, where besides waking the dead, vampires also exist. But racism still exists, and can be just as deadly as in this America. In fact, it was a little hard to figure out if Badger was setting her story in this America with people with hidden powers or in a different America, and I'm not sure which one it is to be honest, and I wish she would have made that more clear. Also, although I enjoyed how obedient, wide-eyed, and optimistic Ellie was, it was hard to believe she was also 18 years old. Good story-telling with a satisfying ending.

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Ellie's grandmother often said, " A wise woman knows how to pick her battles."  Ellie would add that an unwise bird nearly dies by attacking its reflection.

Close to Death

Close to Death (Hawthorne & Horowitz, #5)Close to Death by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This was my least favorite of the series. Horowitz has set up some rules of how this series is laid out and then he breaks them. Read as a cold case that Hawthorne will only reveal to him slowly as he writes it, it is narrated as third person for most of it. The case does catch up to the modern day, and it is only then that it picks up in my opinion. Without the banter of Hawthorne and Horowitz and Horowitz's preoccupation with beating Hawthorne, much of the magic is lost. It's still a passable mystery and the end of the book, when the partnership reunites saves it from a complete disappointment. (If I wasn't expecting one thing, and getting another I might even have enjoyed it quite a bit).

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Wednesday, November 5, 2025

The Twist of a Knife

 

The Twist of a Knife (Hawthorne & Horowitz #4)The Twist of a Knife by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This installment starts profoundly slow--so much about Horowitz's latest project: a play that is opening at London's West End after touring briefly. Slightly interesting to peek behind the scenes, especially from the writers point of view, but it drags on too long. It's made up for by a murder that points to only Anthony as the suspect, and the two detectives he antagonized in a previous instance are only too happy to pin it on him. Only Hawthorne can help him, but he doesn't seem to eager to clear him either. I figured out the ending only because the meta-verse Horowitz created tipped me off.

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A Line to Kill

A Line to Kill (Hawthorne & Horowitz #3)A Line to Kill by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Horowitz is constantly considering parting ways with Hawthorne, but this time the murder happens in real time while they are at a book festival. Secrets about Hawthorne play a part too, and Horowitz seems to have no choice but to pen to paper and narrate the investigation (and maybe figure it out before Horowitz does!) Another intriguing "fun" mystery!

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I'm surrounded by silence but at the same time I'm drowning in words and it hardly ever leaves me, that sense of disconnection.

The Sentence is Death

 

The Sentence is Death (Hawthorne & Horowitz, #2)The Sentence is Death by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This second installment in the Hawthorne/Horowitz series hit all the good notes. By now I was acclimated to the surreal world that is both true and fiction, with the relationship between Hawthorne and Horowitz becoming amicably antagonistic. The mystery is complicated enough, but the clues are there to follow if you happen to be as good as Hawthorne.

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Tuesday, November 4, 2025

The Invention of Nature

 

The Invention of Nature: Alexander von Humboldt's New WorldThe Invention of Nature: Alexander von Humboldt's New World by Andrea Wulf
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Wulf not only reintroduces us to the life and work of Alexander von Humboldt whose life was full of optimism, adventure, and learning, but shows how his work was integral to Darwin, Muir, Thoreau, Haeckel and more. Humboldt was a pioneer in showing how separate elements in the environment affects and impacts each other and showed that humans' actions could have a significant consequences for the environment and species within it. He was a voracious student and learned as much as he could, synthesizing his research to conclude how it all tied together. He wrote compelling narratives of his explorations and inspired others to discover the wonder of nature. He was able to tie science and art together so that the natural world became a thing of both beauty and wonder and also truth and predictability. Wulf does an excellent job of showing how Humboldt inspired other famous scientists and artists, and how his work is still relevant today. A compelling, insightful and inspiring read

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He saw the earth as one great living organism where everything was connected, conceiving a bold new vision of nature that still influences the way that we understand the natural world.

More places are named after Humboldt than anyone else.

"Nature must be experienced through feeling."

Humboldt was the first to explain the fundamental functional of the forest for the ecosystem and climate: the trees' ability to store water and to enrich the atmosphere with moisture, their protection of the soil, and their cooling effect. 

"What speaks to one soul," Humboldt said, "escapes our measurements."

Humboldt had discovered the idea of a keystone species

Naturgemäde showed for the first time that nature was a global force with corresponding climate zones across continents.

Humboldt had discovered the magnetic equator.

Wilhelm now wrote that "language was the formative organ of thoughts".  Just as nature was so much more than the accumulation of plants, rocks and animals, so language was more than just words, grammar and sounds.  According to Wilhelm's radical new theory, different languages reflected different views of the world.  Language was not just a tool to express thoughts but it shaped thoughts--through its grammar, vocabulary, tenses and so on.

It was SimĂłn BolĂ­var who had first enshriend Humboldt's ideas into law when he issued a visionary decree in 1825, requiring the government in Bolivia to plant 1 million trees. 

Muir saw his mountain theories brought alive.  "Destruction," he said, "is always creation."

Humblodt was not known for a sigle fact or a discovery but for his worldview.

It is almost as though his ideas have become so manifest that the man behind them has disappeared.