Wednesday, September 2, 2026

Angle of Repose

Angle of ReposeAngle of Repose by Wallace Stegner
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I first read this in college, before I got married, and right before I dated a cowboy (perhaps not coincidentally). It wasn't quite the novel I remember, the ending climax so shocking to me then it seemed to be the center of the book and I would have told you it was solely about that one incident. It is, as Lyman Ward, the fictitious narrator, put it, a history of a marriage. It is how Susan Ward followed her engineering husband into the "wild" west and tried to keep a hold on who she was and where she came from. It is how a man tries to keep his integrity in a lawless land. It is about the sacrifices they make to keep their family together, and the dreams they have both individually and together. The memorable tragedy of the novel could be laid at the foot of Susan, of her pride and her selfishness and her longing for something more than the life her husband offered her. But Lyman is more compassionate toward her than he is his own wife, and through his eyes we see someone desperately trying to make peace with the life she led rather than the life she dreamed about. ("Is this the life you chose yourself/Or just how it ended up?" The Killers). The fact that Susan and Oliver end up in an "angle of repose", a place of "lying down", a place of acceptance or appeasement, which for them was a "separate line that did not intersect", is perhaps the true tragedy.

I wondered back then why Stegner used Lyman Ward particularly as the narrator/ historian. The intro in my copy says it was a way to embody the idea of time being lived in the past and present simultaneously that occurs when working on historical works. I think, too, having Lyman Ward be as helpless as he was allows him to understand the confinement, dependence, and desperation Susan, as a woman had, especially in that era.

Having read this novel again after being married for 30+ years, I find it even more intricate and nuanced than I did the first time around. Our marriage also included several moves, several dreams that changed, several sacrifices and choices for our family. I am gratified that our angle of repose seems to be rolling closer together, but can relate to some of the feelings and frustrations of Susan and feel the full effects of the tragedy must have been for Susan after having children of my own ((both the loss of one, and the loss of the respect from the other)). Stegner writes these emotions as beautifully as he describes the west--both its beauty and its barrenness. His landscapes are the perfect backdrop for this marriage that struggles to survive in the elements, each not quite comprehending what the other needs.

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I believe in Time, as they did, and in the life chronological rather than in life existential. We live in time and through it, we build our huts in its ruins, or used to , and we cannot afford all these abandonings.

the Doppler Effect. The sound of anything coming at you--a train, say, or the future--has a higher pitch than the sound of the same thing going away.

who wants to compute the speed of history? Like all falling bodies, it constantly accelerates. 

But I would like to hear your life as you heard it, coming at you, instead of hearing it as I do, a sober sound of expectations reduced, desires blunted, hoped deferred or abandoned, chances lost, defeats accepted, griefs borne. 

Exposure followed by sanctuary was somehow part of Grandmother's emotional need, and it turned out to be the pattern of her life.

Don't you know how we lose the sense of your own individuality when there is nothing to reflect it back upon us?

What really interests me is how tow such unlike particles clung together, and under what strains, rolling downhill into their future until they reached the angle of repose where I knew them.  That's where the interest is.  That's where the meaning will be if I find any. 

What made that union of opposites home them?

It was what she had deliberately chosen.

Something must have told her, as they dragged over the summit and down to English George's that character as well as mountains had to strip for the skies.

For that sort of pioneer, the West was not a new country being created, but an old one being reproduced.

Quiet desperation is another name for the human condition.

I only know that passion and guilt happened, in some form.  In their world, their time, their circumstances, and given their respective characters, there could have been no passion without guilt, no kisses without tears, no embrace without despair.

He had to be himself--nothing spectacular, nothing gorgeous or picturesque.  Just, as she had more than once said in her letters to Augusta, her plain boy.  But it was on his sill and judgement that everything hung.  Having doubted him thought the picturesque hour of departure, she no saw him go with a quick, strong rush of love and pride.

Is it not queer, and both desolating and comforting, how, with all associations broken, one forms new ones, as a broken bone thickens in healing.

She mined and irrigated every slightest incident, she wrote and drew her life instead of living it.

"You married me," his look said. "Maybe that was a mistake.  But you didn't marry what you could make out of me.  I wouldn't be much good remodeled."







Monday, August 10, 2026

The Force

The ForceThe Force by Don Winslow
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

A dnf for me at 50%. Malone is a cop. The first few chapters go on and on about the nobility of the calling of cop but then we learn that though he will give turkeys away on Thanksgiving, make sure kids aren't abused, and treats his partners like family--he is just as dirty as any of them. Well, but its just the way of the city. No one cares if how you get the job done as long as you get the job done. But then he gets hauled in, has to name names, and you can see his inextricable slide into more and more rationalizations. I gave it 2 stars because it probably isn't a bad book, just one I got tired of. Too much swearing. Too much melodrama. Probably didn't help that I just read Colson Whitehead's Harlem trilogy recently and he does the self-rationalizing good/bad guy thing so much better.

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After Life

 

After LifeAfter Life by Gayle Forman
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Sweet YA novel about death. I know that sounds weird. Amber comes back home to realize she's been dead for seven years and her death definitely affected her family and friends. Some wanted revenge, some gave up faith, some were riddled by guilt, and others gave up on their own lives. Her reappearance also affects everyone differently (disbelief, new-found faith, suspicion). But her sister knows something that everyone doesn't--Amber has always been there, looking out for her. Perhaps people don't die if we let their life, memories, and influence continue. This novel moves fast introducing ideas and feelings, but not mining them too deep (because its YA?) but it allows the reader to come to their own conclusions.

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Not Quite Dead Yet

 

Not Quite Dead YetNot Quite Dead Yet by Holly Jackson
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Can it be called a cozy mystery when the victim is investigating their own murder? Jet has been fatally wounded and only has about a week to solve who wanted her dead and why before she has an inevitable aneurysm. There are plenty of suspects and motives and just when you think you've figured it out, you're wrong. There's a sweet romance and the lesson to live life as full as possible because who knows when it's our last week. It all builds to slightly melodramatic over-the-top ending, but hey, that's what cozy mysteries are all about, right?

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Turns out dying feels a lot like living.

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TranscriptionTranscription by Kate Atkinson
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I love a good spy romp and this definitely has a lot of tropes in it (alcoholic spy, gay spy, woman who knits). What was interesting about this one is the life of the spy after the war. What happens when you run into an old acquaintance? How do the things you did as a spy affect you now? It may have been the fact that I read this in spurts because of vacation but I felt like the disjointed timelines did more harm than good in this book. Too many people in each time period--too hard to keep track. Timelines that looped within timelines. References to things that happened in the book, and things that hadn't happened yet made me keep wondering if I'd missed something. Some plot points didn't seem to get resolved during all the time jumping.

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He had no Shakespeare, she realized. 

Do not equate nationalism with patriotism...Nationalism is the first step on the road to Fascism

This was how people disappeared from history, wasn't it? They weren't erased, they were explained away.

the counterfeit, although no deception was intended...was in some was truer...

Isola

 

IsolaIsola by Allegra Goodman
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I loved this book! It starts out slow, but I feel like it needed to to gain context of her life and the times. Her journey on the island was devastatingly beautiful and I thought it was a beautiful allegory. I was shocked to realize it was based on a real person. Goodman has transcended historical fiction with this one.

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I protested, "You never take my side." "I am always at your side," she said.  "That's different."

We were prisoners of love--but not as poets would describe it.  We had lost hope and equanimity, but not for any passion of our own. 

Even in the dark, my nurse found signs of grace

and I must hurt while was living.

They will say, You are not she.  You are not the Marguerite who lived here once.  And that was true. 

State of Paradise

 

State of ParadiseState of Paradise by Laura van den Berg
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This was a great, quirky read--one of the best takes on Covid that I have read. A ghost writer is still living with her mother after a pandemic which leaves unsettling and ambiguous side effects. People are disappearing, there are sinkholes swallowing up great swathes of land, and it is all connected to a virtual reality game. Van de Berg explores how to be present in your life, and the many ways in which we disappear, sell ourselves short, or don't recognize our influence. And she reveals how the world is constantly changing for good or for bad (or for weird), but that that's ok. We'll look back and at this weird new time one day and be nostalgic for it. For all its insight, I do wish it was a bit more cohesive.

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Ghosting is not how I intended to spend my days on earth

The knife was the guillotine; the knife is the universal means of solving all knots; and along the blade of a knife lies the path of paradox--the single most worthy path of the fearless mind.

"Lubber" comes from the Old English word :lobre" lazy--a fitting name for these ambling, flightless pests.

The thing about holes...is that you can't force them to close.

"At first I thought I'd been stabbed by a ghost."

"We've lost you," my father said when he parted the white curtain and saw me in the hospital bed, even though I had, technically speaking, just been found.

The problem, I have decided with people who never leave home is that they are nver forced to become someone else.

People tell stories to will lies into truth.
 People tell stories to bend truth into lies.
People tell stories to carve for themselves a legible shape our of an inexplicable existence.
People tell stories to atone for what they have failed to do in life.

A mistake is never his mistake unless he fails to catch it.

Florida is used to disaster, in other words, but it used to disasters it can name.

It always amazes me when people ask what happened? as though the question is a simple one.

"She told me about the etymology of 'utopia", he says.  "How the word literally translate to 'no place".

There is a suspicious lack of privacy in many of these utopias.

Sometimes we are called back to the things we most want to flee, perhaps because they left such a mark that we don't know how to leave them behind.

A utopia is, after all, a thing that rises from disaster, ruin, rubble.  Without all that failure there can be no such thing as a utopia, since there would be no other reality to compare it to.

When I first became a ghost, the assistants emailed me a tip sheet titled Principles of Plot.  From this sheet, I learned that every action in a story is caused by what precedes it.  Nothing is random, in other words. 

Later I told him that one must be conscious in order to be calm.  That these kinds of distinctions mattered.

When the meteorologist asks why the snails didn't find their way back to the water, the zoologist replies, Probably the snails hid in their shells and waited for conditions to improve, but they never did.

Some events are too big to even acknowledge.

when we are denied a story, a light goes off.

We only know what we perceive...And we perceive so very little.

I am attempting to document the world as accurately as I can, even if that means I have to make things up.

Time involves change; a universe in which nothing changes would be a timeless universe.

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

The Seventh Veil of Salome

 

The Seventh Veil of SalomeThe Seventh Veil of Salome by Silvia Moreno-Garcia
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

We have several story-lines here and they are all a little over the top. But it is old Hollywood and about making a costume drama full of Biblical drama. And the Biblical drama itself which probes into the question of why Herodias' daughter would ask for John the Baptist's head. Greed, jealousy, and prejudice show up in both time lines and in several characters. Social perception is just as potent in ancient Jordan as it is in 1950s Hollywood. Love and violence, power and money, corruption and intolerance. And caught in the middle of both story lines are slightly naive women who become the catalyst for destruction. Entertaining.

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There was a certain danger in seeing and being seen.

The Ministry of Utmost Happiness

The Ministry of Utmost HappinessThe Ministry of Utmost Happiness by Arundhati Roy
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

No question this has beautiful writing. It is also a beautiful story of love and hope amid war, strife, and bigotry. There are several story lines and quite a lot about the history of India and Kashmir in particular. But my problem is that it was just too dense for me. I felt like I got the gist but not the true meaning. Perhaps one day I will reread it and glean more, but besides (quite) a few quotes I didn't pick up much.

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Was it possible to live outside language?

celebrated (but never preached) the virtue of spirituality over sacrament, simplicity over opulence and stubborn, ecstatic love even when faced with the prospect of annihilation. 

This place where we live, where we have made our home, is the place of falling people.

Kashmir was one of the few places where a fair-skinned people had been ruled by a darker-skinned one.

Duplicity is the only weapon we have.

And yet, the burden of perpetual apprehension that she had carried around for years--of suddenly receiving news of Musa's death--had lightened somewhat.  Not because she loved him any less, but becasue the battered angels in the graveyard that kept watch over their battered charges held open the doors between world (illegally, just a crack), so that the souls of the present and the departed could mingle, like guests at the same party.  It made life less determinate and death less conclusive.  Somehow everything became a little easier to bear. 

Plain Jane and the Mermaid


Plain Jane and the MermaidPlain Jane and the Mermaid by Vera Brosgol
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A nice graphic novel with a message about the real value of a person--not how they look. Of course, it sort of kicks itself in the foot by starting out the title as "Plain" Jane but we soon discover that Jane is full of ingenuity, bravery, and kindness. Is it predictable--yes. Do I sort of hate that there is the reverse stereo-type that the beautiful mermaid is evil--yes. But in a world of fairy princesses its nice to have another protagonist that celebrates something other than looks.

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Project Hail Mary

Project Hail MaryProject Hail Mary by Andy Weir
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I feel like Weir writes solely to explain physics, math, and biology, which I'm not mad about. If I could always get difficult (for me) subjects explained to me in cute, slightly tense, interesting stories, I might have been much better at them. Weirs books also tend to help me believe the premise that no matter what circumstances happen on earth, smart people will come up with a solution. And Grace does seem to think his way out of every hiccup. Weir also sneaks in some questions about who should make decisions--how far should authority go? (is the end of the world reason enough for a dictator? does it necessitate it?). what does sacrifice and bravery look like? how do we impose our own biases on cultures we don't understand? If you go on this ride, you will believe that good will triumph, problems can be solved, and if you know enough math you can save the world.

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Believe it or not, light has momentum.  It exerts a force.  If you were out in space and you turned on a flashlight, you'd get a teeny, tiny amount of thrust from it. 

A Sorceress Comes to Call

A Sorceress Comes to CallA Sorceress Comes to Call by T. Kingfisher
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

4 and maybe a little more, because one of the protagonists is an older lady that gets to find love, and I liked that angle. I liked all of the magic and the fact that the plot twists enough to keep it interesting. Its dark for a coming of age novel, but it's lightened by several humorous scenes. Questions of free will, strength, love and bravery are raised and the answers vary with the character. The underlying issue is what is holding you back? And what would you do move forward?

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The Last Mrs. Parrish

 

The Last Mrs. Parrish (Mrs. Parrish, #1)The Last Mrs. Parrish by Liv Constantine
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

DNF. I did read over half of this and then it wasn't worth it anymore. I didn't mind the unlikeable narrator or her schemes and I could tell what one of the twists was right away (and I wasn't wrong) but then when the perspective changes to the first Mrs. Parrish, some of the scenes were so totally degrading and humiliating that I couldn't finish. In what I took to be as a light bit of summer revenge reading turned too dark, and I thought the depth of many scenes were totally unnecessary. Wasn't worth finishing.

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Friday, July 3, 2026

Go

 

GoGo by Kazuki Kaneshiro
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

At the time of this review, the GR average for Go was 3.63 stars which is probably where I'd put it. Such an interesting point of view: a Korean in Japan, otherwise known as Zainichi. Sugihara has been bullied in school because of his heritage and has become a proficient fighter as a result. Slightly hot-headed, he grapples with the idea of nationality vs. heritage--where should his loyalties lie? If you speak the language, eat the food, agree with the politics, are you not a member of the nation? But if your history also includes a race that has been discriminated against do you owe that history and culture a certain amount of loyalty? What if it keeps you from loving someone? Or keeps them from loving you? Sugihara struggles with these questions of identity while navigating school, family, friends, and first love. While extremely intriguing, the writing was a little stilted, which could be part of the frustrations of translation--I have found many Japanese-translated books have a similar style-- so I question whether my opinion is criticism of the writing ,my ignorance of Japanese expression, or just one of those things lost in translation.

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I was just living with the circumstances that I happened to be born into.

Island Beneath the Sea



Island Beneath the SeaIsland Beneath the Sea by Isabel Allende
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Relating the history of Haiti and highlighting the relationship between Haiti and Louisiana, Allende does a superb job of creating a myriad of characters that represent several perspectives. While she doesn't shy away from the cruelty of slavery, she also shines a light on the spirit of the revolutionary slaves as well as showing the precariousness of the mulatto population. Allende is always best when she when she adds some magical realism and the Haiti religion of voodoo creates a world where mysticism is married to science and is even sought out by some of the white doctors. I felt like I learned a lot about history and geography (even if some subsequent research called into question some of Allende's facts such as the Cordon Bleu balls). This is how I learn history best: by giving me some characters whose fate I care about and help me understand the implications of political and economic policy on the specific people.

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Music is a wind that blows away the years.

In spite of subtleties of color, the mulattoes were united by their shared apsiration to pass for whites and their visceral scorn for Negroes.

doesn't mean anything for me to be free and everyone else slaves

to heal her, as the doctor himself admitted, but to ease her existence.

knowledge comes from Papa Bondye and it belongs to everyone, and if not shared it is lost.

He had heard the Negroes have more capacity for suffering: the proof was that no white could bear what the blacks endured

There is no worse suffering than to love with fear, said Tante Rose

She walked with determination, not thinking about how far she had to go but how far she had come.

[Louisiana] Sold like cattle! Humiliation and fury replaced the festive spirit of the previous day.

Monday, June 1, 2026

The Year of Magical Thinking

 

The Year of Magical ThinkingThe Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This is often referred to as the seminal work about grief. It is very honest. And I am in the enviable position of not having lost a very close person (yet). I appreciated her emotions and the fact that having to deal with a sudden loss of a loved one while taking care of another loved in precarious health must have been traumatizing. I just found more inspiration personally in C.S. Lewis, Madeline L'Engle, and Julian Barnes.

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In the midst of life we are in death

that the death, even if sudden or accidental, "gives advance warning of its arrival."

Were faith and grief the same thing?

Grief was passive.  Grief happened.  Mourning, the act of dealing with grief, required attention.

yet having seen the picture in no way deflected, when it came, the swift empty loss of the actual event.  It was still black and white.  Each of them had been in the last instant alive, and then dead.

Marriage is not only time: it is also, paradoxically, the denial of time.

when we mourn our losses we also mourn, for better or for worse, ourselves.  As we were.  As we are no longer.  As we will one day not be at all. 

Bear

BearBear by Julia Phillips
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This tale teeters on the edge of fairy tale. Two sisters living with their dying mom encounter a bear that upends their world. One sister finds herself inexplicably drawn to the bear while the other sees the danger it represents and will do anything she can to stop her sister from befriending it further. It's an intimate look at sisterhood and I loved that aspect. It's also an examination of how systems (medical, police, etc.) often contribute rather than relieve many of the problems its designed to alleviate. Economic disparity, tourism, COVID, and climate change are also discussed. Obviously the bear can stand in for several other issues and that's what creates the fairy-tale-like feeling, making it a magical, but thought-provoking book.

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When she and Elena moved off-island, they would enjoy, she imagined, mentioning to people the beautiful place in which they'd grown up.

Somewhere, somehow, in the space left unexplored by bureaucrats and biologists, there existed possiblities. There might be magic to be found. 

For a moment, in the woods, there was nothing, and then--there it was again.  Its body appeared and vanished.  It was walking the fine line between their human existence and monstrosity.  She didn't know how quickly it could move.

Real care was something else entirely.  A more rare beast.  It was growing up alongside each other, watching one another.  It was the ability to hear what wasn't said. 

The Museum of Failures

 

The Museum of FailuresThe Museum of Failures by Thrity Umrigar
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Probably 4.5 stars. One of the best studies of characterization I've read. No one is wholly good or bad and as we follow Remy's thoughts they flit from gratefulness to resentfulness in seconds; from love to anger; from awe to frustration, capturing how we can hold almost two diametrically feelings toward something or someone at the same time. It's a complicated storyline but also simple--a man goes to India to adopt a baby and discovers his mother is ill. He confronts a past that holds secrets he didn't know existed while trying to navigate his two identities as Indian and American. There are disappointments and happy surprises, revelations that shake his world, and make him reassess his beliefs and values. Ultimately hopeful and inspiring, its a reminder that there is always more to the story than we think.

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Contentment, the enemy of art.

But, son, faith is like an armor.  It's for your own protection.  this world can be an unforgiving place.  Faith helps a man from getting buffeted around.

By treating her son as less than human, they had diminished their own humanity.

But if you don't tell your parents, you're depriving them of something.  Don't you see?  You're depriving them of a chance to rise to the occasion.  To transcend their own limitations.

Because, ultimately, everybody's story was written in the scars.

This was how destiny was formed, Remy decided, not by what was written in the stars by some distant god, but by human choice and effort and courage. All he had to do was be brave.

My Family and Other Animals

My Family and Other Animals (Corfu Trilogy, #1)My Family and Other Animals by Gerald Durrell
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Such a cute, entertaining book about family, nature, exploration, and childhood. The Durrells were definitely an unconventional family, but I found their rather whimsical take on life inspiring. Gerry's descriptions of birds and insects were definitely anthropomorphic but it was hard not to think that these animals weren't causing mischief on purpose. Funny and endearing.

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gently behind us like a white peacock's tail, glinting with bubbles.

if the curious, blurring haze produced a sound, it would be exactly the strange, chiming cries of these insects.

Friday, May 29, 2026

Symphony of Secrets

Symphony of SecretsSymphony of Secrets by Brendan Slocumb
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I found myself quite drawn into this dual timeline story of a revered composer who isn't quite what he seems. I especially was engaged with the story of Josephine and Fred. Slocumb highlights how those who are not understood or tolerated by the majority can be dismissed or exploited. In both timelines fame and money overshadow morality and it is satisfying when the little guys find ways subvert the powerful, even if it takes a few years for truth and justice to prevail.

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