Monday, December 15, 2025

Anything is Possible

Anything Is Possible (Amgash, #2)Anything Is Possible by Elizabeth Strout
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Strout does such a good job in creating significance in the insignificant. Everyday life unfolds with great and terrible consequences, yet she finds grace and hope in small acts too. Each chapter centers on a different character loosely connected with Lucy Barton and the small town in Illinois where she grew up. Each of them struggles, usually internally, with their scars that happened in the past and how this affects what is happening to them now. In most cases, they overcome it with help from those around them who show an unexpected kindness or forgiveness. We all hurt one another, but we can all help one another heal, too, she seems to say. Strout writes in small episodes connected by references to past chapters, so it helps to try to keep track of minor characters because they may become the main character in a few chapters in the future. However, if you lose track, the stories are satisfying by themselves, too.

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That Kind of Mother

 

That Kind of MotherThat Kind of Mother by Rumaan Alam
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This novel attempts to cover a lot of ground: balancing career with motherhood, hiring out care vs. staying home, mixed race adoption, divorce, single parenthood. While the protagonist grapples with all of these issues, I didn't really feel any of angst these issues would produce. Near the end I realized the author was actually a man, and I think he missed the essential feelings of guilt that would exist in a female. While Rebecca sometimes dithers before making a decision, she never questions her choice once she has made it and sometimes blithely disregards the consequences. For instance, when her black child's adult sister explains about skin care Rebecca waves it off as"skin is skin" and then, while realizing her faux pas, we don't see her researching any other differences in grooming, health care, or culture that might affect her adopted son. Perhaps being "that kind of mother" means not second-guessing or worrying about messing up your kids, but I haven't meant a mother yet that doesn't feel some of that anxiety.

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The Underground Railroad

The Underground RailroadThe Underground Railroad by Colson Whitehead
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Yes, Whitehead is a great writer. Yes, this novel is important because it recounts the atrocities this country has committed to people of color. I think when I read it was a science fiction take on the underground railroad, I was hoping for a bit more metaphor and a bit more hope than what I felt this take offered. Yes, the underground railroad in this book is an actual railroad under the ground--but it leads only to different spectacles of horror--eugenics, "historical" tourism, extermination orders, vigilantes,etc. While taken to extremes in cases, all of these scenarios existed in our past (and in some ways now) so it is a truthful and powerful novel in that way. However, its relentlessness made it hard to read much at a time.

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Sometimes such an experience bound one person to another; just as often the shame of one's powerlessness made all witnesses into enemies.

When the slaves finished, they had stripped the fields of their color.  It was a magnificent operation, from seed to bale, but not one of them could be prideful of their labor.  It had been stolen from them.

In death the negro became a human being.  Only then was he the white man's equal.

If Tennessee had a temperament, it took after the dark personality of the world with a taste for arbitrary punishment. 


Bitter Orange

 

Bitter OrangeBitter Orange by Claire Fuller
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

An excellent psychological thriller. Fuller paces things so that new information is not only surprising but throws color on the past as well. And the while they are surprising, they are also not jolting--she lays enough ground work to make the revelations plausible. Atmospheric, haunting, slightly disturbing, but such a great read! Not all questions get answered, but that just lets the mystery linger...

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Friday, December 12, 2025

Girlhood

 

GirlhoodGirlhood by Melissa Febos
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Febos knows how to dial into the crux of matters. Although some of her personal experiences may not vibe with everyone, I think every woman can relate to issues such as being objectified, feeling responsible for another's (read: male's) feelings of rejection, how our perception of our bodies lead to self-hate, promiscuity, shame, etc. Febos successfully weaves personal experiences, literature, and pop culture to examine the female experience. While she doesn't give easy answers, she provides a lot to consider and question.

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To say: no person, trying to take responsibility for her or his identity, should have to be so alone. There must be those among whom we can sit down and weep, and still be counted as warriors.
Author’s Note
I no longer think that the pains or darkness of my own girlhood were exceptional. It is a darker time for many than we are often willing to acknowledge. During it, we learn to adopt a story about ourselves—what our value is, what beauty is, what is harmful and what is normal—
Prologue: Scarification
It is better to choose your pain than to let it choose you.
Kettle Holes
In some inchoate way, I understood that desire led to fear that could lead to hate—all without ever obliterating that original want.

A mystery solved is always a death: that of possibility, denial, the dream of our own invincibility.

The true telling of our stories often requires the annihilation of other stories, the ones we build and carry through our lives because it is easier to preserve some mysteries. We don’t need the truth to survive, and sometimes our survival depends on its denial.
The Mirror Test
“The mirror represents the perspective of the others on my body: by taking over this perspective on myself, self-consciousness is constituted. An essential step in this process is marked by the development of shame.”

To be called a slut is tantamount to being one, she tells her daughter. Society creates you.

This is the brilliance of shame as a tactic of domination: it conditions us to maintain our own isolation.

I have since learned that recognizing the invisible parts of oneself in another person can feel like a radiant kind of love.
Wild America
Our power may be innate, but we learn its meaning from others.

How wrong I had been about freedom. I had mistakenly thought that beauty was the price of it, that I must succeed at erasing myself in order to be myself. In fact, it was the opposite. Only when I divested from the systems that benefited from my self-hatred could I relinquish it and glimpse freedom.

Intimacy, I’ve found, has little to do with romance. Maybe it is the opposite of romance, which is based on a story written by someone else. It is a closeness to another person that requires closeness with oneself. It is not watching lightning strike from the window but being struck by it.
Intrusions
The pathology of victimhood would also claim that self-blaming and shame were my very ordinary attempt to explain what had happened to me, to assert control over it by assuming responsibility.

“Men look at women. Women watch themselves being looked at … Thus she turns herself into an object—and most particularly an object of vision: a sight.”
Thank You for Taking Care of Yourself
Secrets, if initially a source of power to their keepers, often transmute into a source of shame over time.

One of the dictionary definitions of the word unspeakable is “too bad or horrific to express in words.”

see two powerful imperatives that collaborate to encourage empty consent: the need to protect our bodies from the violent retaliation of men and the need to protect the same men from the consequences of their own behavior, usually by assuming personal responsibility. It is our shame, our embarrassment, our duty alone to bear it.

That is, it was preferable to tolerate sex she didn’t want than to tolerate the displeasure of men.

Sex and “love” were dues we owed to society for much, much longer than they have been voluntary routes to our own fulfillment.

If neurologists and psychologists conducted a study of women who had given empty consent, how many symptoms would they identify that we commonly associate with trauma?

It is not a coincidence that the apex of feminine beauty is nearly identical to that of physical powerlessness.

The only thing that renders the awkwardness of affirmative consent greater any of these awkwardnesses is that the onus of it does not rest entirely on the shoulders of the most vulnerable.

A body isn’t very well loved by the person who abandons it when its needs conflict with the desires of strangers.

If I have learned anything by writing this, it is that consent is a form of communication that happens first within the self.

Sometimes what I mean by healing is changing.

We must choose it over and over.
Les Calanques
Once in a while, I’ll give a few dollars to a panhandler who I know is going to spend it on dope. There are days when the next high is the only mercy available to us. Sometimes our best efforts at self-preservation look like a kind of violence.

A thing of unknown value has no value, and I treated myself as such.

The more I know my own worth, the less I have to fling myself against anything. 

American Spy

American SpyAmerican Spy by Lauren Wilkinson
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A great spy novel where the protagonist is a mother running from her past. Pacing, character development, intrigue--all great! Great exploration on American involvement in foreign governments, idealism, feminism, and motherhood.

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 But recruiting and running informants was about cultivating their trust.  To do that I found it worked best to lie frequently to them.

I learned that a secret is power, that power in application is force, that force is strength and strength advantage.

Real democracy has to develop in response to the needs of that society.

The Pull of the Stars

The Pull of the StarsThe Pull of the Stars by Emma Donoghue
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Donoghue does such a remarkable job of creating feelings and emotions by simply relating unrelenting detail of life. She did it in Room and she does it here. At first I was a little exasperated at the chunk of text without chapter or other breaks but soon saw the sheer relentlessness of the page as a brilliant device--the lack of quotation marks was another great choice as the whole narration becomes a sort of fever dream. When the first break happened a third way into the book I felt like I had been completely immersed in Julia's world (and mind). Also like Room I felt like some of the intensity was lost in the second half of the novel. I felt like some of it became repetitive and the love story seemed to come out of nowhere--the same feelings could have been produced without introducing the romantic element, in my opinion. So interesting that Donoghue started writing this before COVID and how so many of the same elements played out in both pandemics. (We thought we were so unique...)

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Skipping Christmas

Skipping ChristmasSkipping Christmas by John Grisham
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

Perhaps this is a good book to read to help evaluate why we run around at Christmas thinking we have to do everything and spend money we don't have, and how mostly its to appease people and keep up appearances. But also how traditions are what create memories and bring people together. The community spirit in the end makes the book a good read, but most of it feels like a drawn out short story. Also surprised by the casual racism.

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Like A Bird

Like a BirdLike a Bird by Fariha Róisín
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

DNF. I give this one star because it had so many elements that should have been made a good novel--the exploration of a mixed-race family where the siblings carry dominant traits from alternate parents and how that shapes their world-view, their family dynamics, and their self-esteem; the protagonist goes through trauma and is helped through it by being able to see dead relatives; her parents throw her out of the house because they believe she is promiscuous when she was really raped and she has to build a life on her own. Any of these would make a good premise to read, but unfortunately the actual execution was excruciating to read. So many inconsistencies, improbable actions and situations. Also, in my opinion the writing read flat and the dialogue stilted. Not sure how this ended up on Best Of lists....

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My Monticello

 

My MonticelloMy Monticello by Jocelyn Nicole Johnson
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A nice collection of short stories playing with voice and perspective--engaging and enlightening, examining ideas of race and family. The novella at the end "My Monticello" was especially memorable--I could see it being a novel or movie.

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Thursday, December 4, 2025

The Book of V.

 

The Book of V.The Book of V. by Anna Solomon
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Growing up, the story of Esther was a favorite because it was one of the few stories in the Bible where the hero is young woman. The focus was always on her bravery and saving her people when no one else could. We knew she was brave because she approached the king without his requesting her, and this might have led to her death. But we know this because there was a former queen, Vashti, who was (assumed) killed when shed didn't come when the king requested her. It's a simple story but the Bible leaves a lot of space in the plot, and there are a lot of thoughts as to why and how the king demanded Vashti's audience and why she turned him down; how Esther was caught the eye of the king to become his second wife; and the character of the king himself. Between Purim pageants and scholarly theories, Esther's story contains multitudes. Solomon adds to this by creating a whole new allegory of women's power. Using three different women in three time periods Solomon explores both the power and vulnerability of women --they both use sex as a weapon, and exploited in return; they grapple with ability to create and how that creation can be useful, powerful, or demeaned or even used against them; how we often let men define our power and try to please them instead of defining ourselves; and how if we are lucky we can build a community of women around us to support us and our creativity. I thought it was particularly interesting that Solomon focuses on domestic arts and knowledge as a means of creation and expression and found truth in the idea that these acts which can be dismissed as women's work (such as sewing, cooking, etc.) are really great expressions of love, passion, tradition and identity. Sex does play a dominant role in this book, but used in a way to illustrate the way both genders use it as a power over the other. I enjoyed all the timelines in this book and thought the writing was fabulous. I loved how the deliberate parallels in the stories evoked themes and ideas that were explored from so many angles.

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My heart isn't hard, Lily thinks.  It's only stretched, and a little faded--often there is only enough space for her own kids' shit and string beans.

Better than becoming a beast would have been to become a man.

their desire for the dresses was not about having something but being it. 

Even if a shred of magic were buried somewhere in him, he would not be able to access it; to access it, you had to be receptive; to be receptive you had to be capable of admitting all you did not know.

anyone would think first to fly, above the earth, and, when that didn't work, to go through.


Having and Being Had

Having and Being HadHaving and Being Had by Eula Biss
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This felt like having a conversation with a friend. Bliss researches and then asks questions, she talks to people and then muses over what they told her. The chapters are short, each sort of dovetails into the other and the content, while mostly about capitalism, art, value, and money meanders as your thoughts or a good conversation would. She doesn't give any pat answers or come to any conclusions (except maybe what she values in her personal life) but it raises enough food for thought to be interesting. The only thing I didn't like was her revelation to write this book so that she could afford to write other books, which colored the whole project for me into more of a pretense than a true examination of the subject.

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its earliest usage, consumption always implied destruction.

What is destroyed when we think of ourselves as consumers, Graeber suggests, is the possibility that we might be doing something productive outside of work.

money is not to blame for this, Piff suggests. What’s to blame is the comfort that a higher class status affords—the independence, the insularity, the security, the illusion of not needing other people.

They don’t boast about their wealth, but about their thrift. They talk about looking for good deals and driving old cars.

Credit is a form of optimism, Yuval Noah Harari suggests. It depends on the belief that the future will be more prosperous than the present.

Credit creates the illusion of equality, in that we can all buy the same things on credit, but we can’t all pay the debt back.

The social cost of some things is their very cheapness.

Work, if we are fortunate, is rewarded with money, but the reward for labor is transformation.

Bureaucracies have a way of making work out of labor and—

Toil is the word Galbraith uses for work that is fatiguing and monotonous and a source of no particular pleasure.

Part of what makes a job good, they understood, is the sense that what you do matters.

Perhaps we should all keep a memento of the Titanic, just to remind ourselves of how safe disaster feels.

Art unmakes the world made by work.

“We are all communists with our closest friends,” David Graeber writes, “and feudal lords when dealing with small children.” We move between different systems of moral accounting, he writes, but all social systems, including capitalism, rest on a bedrock of everyday communism. By everyday communism he means the principle: “From each according to their abilities, to each according to their needs.” An entire economy couldn’t be organized this way, Graeber argues, but many of our daily interactions already are. This is how we exchange information, for instance, in conversation.

Ketman, my brother says, is the word Miłosz used for living undercover, in secret opposition to the regime that wrote his paycheck. He borrowed the concept from Islamic theology, which allowed true believers to conceal their faith when surrounded by unbelievers. For Miłosz, ketman was something like the art of passing. “To say something is white when one thinks it black,” he wrote, “to smile inwardly when one is outwardly solemn, to hate when one manifests love, to know when one pretends not to know, and thus to play one’s adversary for a fool (even as he is playing you for one).” That is the game of ketman.

“It is a way of living with contradiction,” Jacob Mikanowski writes. “It allows those adept at it to create private sanctuaries of the mind, untouched by compromise, even as compromise floods the rest of their lives.”

Precarious was Merriam-Webster’s word of the day recently. This is how I learned that “depending on the will or pleasure of another”
it comes from the Latin for prayer.

“Who enters the precariat?” By everybody, he means potentially anybody.

Some people choose their precarity—evidence that precarity is not just a condition of our time, but a response to

Their very existence is unsettling, suggesting, as it does, that there might be something worth more than security.

John noticed that affluence is the French word for the tributaries of a river.

The people here believe that if artists are successful then their success should produce all the money they need. And if they aren’t successful then they don’t deserve money.

Cars don’t always signal their intentions. And cars aren’t always nice to each other, though they usually show each other some respect in deference to the damage they can do to each other. They are like important men in conversation with other important men. Bicycles are sometimes kindly accommodated by cars, often ignored, occasionally respected, sometimes nervously followed, and frequently not even seen. In this sense, riding in traffic is not unlike being a woman among men.

On a bicycle, I’m alert, aware of everything. It’s exhilarating, the narrow margin, the exposure to injury, the steadying force of the spinning wheels. And then, for the sake of comfort or convenience, I get into a car. The sound of the street is dulled. I sit back and turn on the radio. I become distracted. Speed is easy, unearned, and bicycles are now an annoyance. I forget who I was just moments ago.

Pleasure is not necessarily harmful, he writes. But it “outrages that part of us which is concerned with growth.”
A Long Petal of the SeaA Long Petal of the Sea by Isabel Allende
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Such an interesting history of immigrants from Spain to Chile, adjacent to the life of Pablo Neruda, whose poems are scattered throughout the book. It's a history of a particular group of people, but also the history of Chile. It's also a beautiful love story between two people thrown together by circumstance but then to grow to realize how deep and sweet love grows in the trials and joys of life. If it was missing a little magic, it was still a satisfying, enlightening read.

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Tuesday, November 18, 2025

 

Group: How One Therapist and a Circle of Strangers Saved My LifeGroup: How One Therapist and a Circle of Strangers Saved My Life by Christie Tate
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

DNF. Memoirs are hard to rate, since they are simply a person's experiences, and how can you rate that? However, I have issues with the fact that this was written as a testament to the power of group therapy. Tate's life does seem to gradually trend upwards (I quit at 60% but read the "10 years later"), but at 60% she still hadn't reflected on WHY or HOW group therapy was helping her. Her reverence for her therapist was disturbing to me--she tended to base her actions on what she thought her therapist would say or do. And also, I don't think her recounting all the debasing and humiliating things that she did or had happen to her is necessarily brave or enlightening; especially since she didn't seem to give the same emphasis to her improvements or accomplishments. I'm glad she found something she thought helped her, but neither group therapy nor this book was for me.

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Between Two Fires

Between Two Fires: Truth, Ambition, and Compromise in Putin's RussiaBetween Two Fires: Truth, Ambition, and Compromise in Putin's Russia by Joshua Yaffa
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This was a compulsively interesting portrait of how a people live under a heavy handed dictatorship. Yaffa travels through time by highlighting the lives of several Russians, mainly artists, humanitarians, and religious leaders and the compromises they felt they had to make (or the consequences of not making them) to allow them to continue to create art, help people, or otherwise function in a society where the government is the ultimate authority, and the consequences are powerlessness, imprisonment, or even death. Yaffa names the people who find a way to exist in a society that calls for the compromise their principles in order to function and even exist as "wily" and seems to indicate that it is unique to the Russian people. Perhaps that way of living has become second nature in a nation where such oppression has been the norm for so long and it is disheartening to read the interviews with young people who feel this way of living is fine and normal, but I think most people would rationalize their principles in the face of such dire consequences, especially when they could justify that such actions were for the greater good. Living in a country founded on freedoms of speech, religion, the press, etc. I hope we continue to fight for our rights.

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It began as a survival mechanism, in which citizen and state subconsciously worked together to ensure that the individual took agency in stifling his own freedom and chances for self-realization.

This was not especially fervent loyalty, but rather passive acquiescence, made palatable by all the ways a person could outsmart the system and eke out small, private victories against it.

The citizen was again making do, adjusting to the rules of the game rather than looking to effect change.

Levada worried that its fall was an outcome that came about too easily for the average citizen, an effective revolution that didn’t require anything revolutionary at all from most people. It was an event that happened to individuals, not one made by them—and thus could be internalized as yet another imposition from above.

The Russian wily man, Levada wrote, “not only tolerates deception, but is willing to be deceived, and even… requires self-deception for the sake of his own self-preservation.”

Given weak levels of social bonds and underdeveloped institutions, the wily man is ultimately alone, which leads to a paradox of Russian life that goes back generations: “If a person is forced to carry himself like everyone else, and to demonstrate this publicly, he frees himself from responsibility for those shared positions—but that doesn’t mean he has gotten rid of this basic loneliness in relation to everyone else.” Freedom from responsibility provides the illusion of freedom itself.

THE RUSSIAN LANGUAGE HAS an especially rich word for a person skilled in the act of compromise and adaptation, who intuitively understands what is expected of him and adjusts his beliefs and conduct accordingly: prisposoblenets.

Dovlatov’s 1981 book The Compromise

For Orwell, the telling of “deliberate lies while genuinely believing in them” is a way of staying sane, an effort at retaining a sense of individual will—

One could not live in ignorance or indifference to the urges and caprices of the state; in fact, it was to your advantage to guess what it wanted from you, and to deliver that while also being clever enough to extract some benefit for yourself.

“Many of them never made a conscious decision,” he told me. “It was more of a psychological process—they simply got tired of being afraid.”

on one path lies danger and hardship for you and your family; the other beguiles with a measure of comfort and access—and maybe, you tell yourself, even a measure of influence, a small lever to make life in Chechnya a bit better here and there.

Orthodoxy allowed for a nationalist ideology that venerated the Russian state without the mothballed, inoperable rhetoric of Communism.

He thought of them as reminiscent of holy fools, peculiar figures in Orthodoxy who are known to commit grotesque and provocative acts and are first judged as hooligans or madmen, but after their deaths are revealed to have been saints all along.

“This is the terrible sin of Patriarch Kirill,” Kuraev explained. “He legalized the right to hate.

The message was clear: to act out against Putin is to act against the church, and vice versa. Each institution will defend the interests of the other.

demanding ever-less spiritual effort from parishioners, that they had lost the voice of clarity and truth, and instead spoke in terms of rituals and obedience.

He saw the church as fueled by the same cocktail of fear and self-interest as Yuri Levada’s wily man.

Sergei Chapnin, editor of the official journal of the patriarchate, lamented that the Russian Orthodox Church has become a “Church of Empire,” a “post-Soviet civil religion providing ideological support for the Russian state.”

church emphasizes “Russian saints and Russian greatness; we care about being a patriot.” At the same time, Chapnin said, “we somehow forget the Gospel, and Christ himself isn’t quite so necessary.”

Russia is among the only countries in Europe where the outward manifestation of Christian faith is growing, rather than retreating.

the West is not only a geopolitical foe, but a spiritual one,

Ukraine developed its modern national identity in part by rejecting the Soviet past,

That changed with the Maidan. The protests caused not only a political rupture in Ukraine, but a cultural and civic one.

“We must live to see those times in a way that does not make us blush, so that we have nothing to be ashamed of in how we passed these years,” Dzhepparov said.

“If the Nazi Holocaust exterminated the Other, the Soviet terror was suicidal,” notes Alexander Etkind, a professor at Cambridge University, in Warped Mourning,

the Soviet Union, people were killed or imprisoned for reasons that did not comport with observable reality. As Etkind notes, a Jew caught in the Holocaust understood himself as a Jew; he recognized the category and his belonging to it, even if he obviously did not find this a reason to exterminate him. But who was a kulak, an enemy of the people, a counterrevolutionary element?

After the Soviet collapse, freedom had descended on the country too effortlessly, and wasn’t appreciated or understood.

somehow, the Stalinist machine produced millions of victims but no criminals.

with no settled, mutually accepted version of the country’s history, any attempt to come up with one was, by definition, a political gesture.

Not entirely unlike Heda Saratova, Glinka was in the ironic position of relying on the state to help those who, in some sense, were victimized by that very same state.

moral value of helping a person in need trumped how that help might be obtained. I

Putin’s response—turning to a new ruling ideology that blended conservative values, anti-Western resentment, disdain for urban elites, and an elevation of the Orthodox Church—

be a functioning adult in the world, we all must balance competing sets of expectations and pressures with our own understanding of self.

is the singular role of the state that gives this dynamic, otherwise perfectly relatable and universal, its particular Russian tinge.

Putin is more likely to be replaced in a coup from above than a revolution from below.

“A growing part of society is developing civic consciousness as a result of nonpolitical conflicts in which entities supported by the authorities intrude into ordinary people’s private space.”

Monday, November 10, 2025

The Jane Austen Society

 

The Jane Austen Society (Jane Austen Society #1)The Jane Austen Society by Natalie Jenner
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I really do enjoy Jane Austen, but I am not a superfan-- I can't quote her and I don't read her every year. Perhaps you have to be the latter to really enjoy this ode to Austen. A eclectic group of fans in Chawton, just after WWII band together to save Austen's legacy. They have all been inspired and consoled by Austen and as they work through legal paperwork and personal problems, they grow closer and help each other out. They quote Austen regularly and argue motivations of characters, which is interesting (but would have been more if I was a superfan and could recall every character like they do). But it is a plodding novel, that deals too much in the minutiae of the Society--calling meetings to order, who voted and who didn't, etc. --which I bore because I thought this was based on a real Society--but although the Austen home is preserved in Chawton, the Society and its members are also fictionalized. The story was not compelling enough to be entirely fictional in my opinion. But if you are a Jane superfan, or enjoy mild small town drama maybe you will enjoy this.

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Here One Moment

 

Here One MomentHere One Moment by Liane Moriarty
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I used to love everything Liane Moriarty wrote, and I don't know if I changed, or if she did. This book was ok. I also really like exploring the idea of feeling that there is a plan for each of us, that things happen for a reason, but how it can get twisted with ideas of fate, and the feeling that there is no choice. This book explored that and I especially liked that she focused on the choices each passenger made because of this "knowledge" they received about how and when they would die. But maybe it was the number of characters that were involved, I never felt like I was fully invested in any one of them. And they seemed a lot like the same characters in Nine Perfect Strangers (which I didn't read but attempted to watch and gave up because it was terrible). An interesting premise, but maybe I was expecting too much, because I was ultimately underwhelmed.

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Because the moment I do, you change your behavior.  You're no longer the same person you were a moment before.  See the logic?  So--all I can do is interpret the cards to help you see possible paths.

Chaos theory is the idea that a tiny change now can result ina large change later

Gödel's "incompleteness theorem" which states that in any reasonable mathematical system there will always be true statements that cannot be proved.

If you tell yourself you're going to unhappy you will be!  You can choose how to see your future!


Thursday, November 6, 2025

Elatsoe

Elatsoe (Elatsoe, #1)Elatsoe by Darcie Little Badger
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

A highly imaginative story of an indigenous Indian girl who can raise the dead, though she limits herself to animals because there is a darkness to the power that must be controlled. This YA novel tackles issues such as grief, love, family, race and class. She has a healthy friendship with her best friend Jay, who enthusiastically supports her, and she has a ghost dog that can appear on demand and howl incredibly loudly. She occupies a slightly different America, where besides waking the dead, vampires also exist. But racism still exists, and can be just as deadly as in this America. In fact, it was a little hard to figure out if Badger was setting her story in this America with people with hidden powers or in a different America, and I'm not sure which one it is to be honest, and I wish she would have made that more clear. Also, although I enjoyed how obedient, wide-eyed, and optimistic Ellie was, it was hard to believe she was also 18 years old. Good story-telling with a satisfying ending.

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Ellie's grandmother often said, " A wise woman knows how to pick her battles."  Ellie would add that an unwise bird nearly dies by attacking its reflection.

Close to Death

Close to Death (Hawthorne & Horowitz, #5)Close to Death by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This was my least favorite of the series. Horowitz has set up some rules of how this series is laid out and then he breaks them. Read as a cold case that Hawthorne will only reveal to him slowly as he writes it, it is narrated as third person for most of it. The case does catch up to the modern day, and it is only then that it picks up in my opinion. Without the banter of Hawthorne and Horowitz and Horowitz's preoccupation with beating Hawthorne, much of the magic is lost. It's still a passable mystery and the end of the book, when the partnership reunites saves it from a complete disappointment. (If I wasn't expecting one thing, and getting another I might even have enjoyed it quite a bit).

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Wednesday, November 5, 2025

The Twist of a Knife

 

The Twist of a Knife (Hawthorne & Horowitz #4)The Twist of a Knife by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This installment starts profoundly slow--so much about Horowitz's latest project: a play that is opening at London's West End after touring briefly. Slightly interesting to peek behind the scenes, especially from the writers point of view, but it drags on too long. It's made up for by a murder that points to only Anthony as the suspect, and the two detectives he antagonized in a previous instance are only too happy to pin it on him. Only Hawthorne can help him, but he doesn't seem to eager to clear him either. I figured out the ending only because the meta-verse Horowitz created tipped me off.

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A Line to Kill

A Line to Kill (Hawthorne & Horowitz #3)A Line to Kill by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Horowitz is constantly considering parting ways with Hawthorne, but this time the murder happens in real time while they are at a book festival. Secrets about Hawthorne play a part too, and Horowitz seems to have no choice but to pen to paper and narrate the investigation (and maybe figure it out before Horowitz does!) Another intriguing "fun" mystery!

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I'm surrounded by silence but at the same time I'm drowning in words and it hardly ever leaves me, that sense of disconnection.

The Sentence is Death

 

The Sentence is Death (Hawthorne & Horowitz, #2)The Sentence is Death by Anthony Horowitz
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This second installment in the Hawthorne/Horowitz series hit all the good notes. By now I was acclimated to the surreal world that is both true and fiction, with the relationship between Hawthorne and Horowitz becoming amicably antagonistic. The mystery is complicated enough, but the clues are there to follow if you happen to be as good as Hawthorne.

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Tuesday, November 4, 2025

The Invention of Nature

 

The Invention of Nature: Alexander von Humboldt's New WorldThe Invention of Nature: Alexander von Humboldt's New World by Andrea Wulf
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Wulf not only reintroduces us to the life and work of Alexander von Humboldt whose life was full of optimism, adventure, and learning, but shows how his work was integral to Darwin, Muir, Thoreau, Haeckel and more. Humboldt was a pioneer in showing how separate elements in the environment affects and impacts each other and showed that humans' actions could have a significant consequences for the environment and species within it. He was a voracious student and learned as much as he could, synthesizing his research to conclude how it all tied together. He wrote compelling narratives of his explorations and inspired others to discover the wonder of nature. He was able to tie science and art together so that the natural world became a thing of both beauty and wonder and also truth and predictability. Wulf does an excellent job of showing how Humboldt inspired other famous scientists and artists, and how his work is still relevant today. A compelling, insightful and inspiring read

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He saw the earth as one great living organism where everything was connected, conceiving a bold new vision of nature that still influences the way that we understand the natural world.

More places are named after Humboldt than anyone else.

"Nature must be experienced through feeling."

Humboldt was the first to explain the fundamental functional of the forest for the ecosystem and climate: the trees' ability to store water and to enrich the atmosphere with moisture, their protection of the soil, and their cooling effect. 

"What speaks to one soul," Humboldt said, "escapes our measurements."

Humboldt had discovered the idea of a keystone species

Naturgemäde showed for the first time that nature was a global force with corresponding climate zones across continents.

Humboldt had discovered the magnetic equator.

Wilhelm now wrote that "language was the formative organ of thoughts".  Just as nature was so much more than the accumulation of plants, rocks and animals, so language was more than just words, grammar and sounds.  According to Wilhelm's radical new theory, different languages reflected different views of the world.  Language was not just a tool to express thoughts but it shaped thoughts--through its grammar, vocabulary, tenses and so on.

It was Simón Bolívar who had first enshriend Humboldt's ideas into law when he issued a visionary decree in 1825, requiring the government in Bolivia to plant 1 million trees. 

Muir saw his mountain theories brought alive.  "Destruction," he said, "is always creation."

Humblodt was not known for a sigle fact or a discovery but for his worldview.

It is almost as though his ideas have become so manifest that the man behind them has disappeared.

Friday, October 24, 2025

Everything Inside

 

Everything InsideEverything Inside by Edwidge Danticat
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A short story collection about Haitian immigrants (mostly). Really stories about human life--love, death, families, struggle, but infused with the culture and view-point of Haiti, especially those first -generation and second-generation immigrants. Relatable and compelling read.


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Another type of priest, cantor, vicar, or layperson  might have performed a different ritual, but the basic idea would have been the same: the try, with with will and desire alone, to influence something you could not. 

Washington Black

Washington BlackWashington Black by Esi Edugyan
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Washington Black is a slave in Barbados when the story opens. Chosen to be the companion to Titch, the son who is driven by scientific curiosity, Washington becomes educated and begins to see the truth in his subjugation. When circumstances require that he flee, Titch goes with him for he feels just as trapped as Washington. They soon start an odyssey of sorts, seeking shelter and help from Titch's eclectic scientific friends, and traveling to the ends of the earth where Washington is abandoned and must make his own way in the world using the knowledge and skills he has acquired. What is freedom? How can education and scientific knowledge emancipate someone? Are there limits to what you can achieve beyond your control? Are there things that science simply cannot answer? These are some of the questions in this novel and it is an entertaining and thought-provoking read. It was a little too ambiguous for me to feel fully satisfied; I felt like it needed a bit more cohesion but still a worthwhile read.

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You were more concerned that slavery should be a moral stain upon white men than by the actual damage it wreaks on black men.

We had been estranged from the potential of our own bodies, from the revelation of everything our bodies and minds could accomplish. 

Friday, September 26, 2025

The Scent Keeper

 

The Scent KeeperThe Scent Keeper by Erica Bauermeister
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I really wanted to like this book because it took such a different angle. First was the not dysfunctional relationship Emmaline had with a father who effectively kidnapped her and held her captive on an island. But besides that he seemed like a loving, kind father, unlike most kidnapping, isolating fathers. Then, everything is told through smell, which is a unique and interesting perspective that probably doesn't get the emphasis it should. The device described in the book that captures smells sounds awesome. But it just all gets too precious, and the endless metaphors and allegorical references, and earnestness is grating. Everything is too saturated with meaning--like an overwhelming scent that draws you in and then becomes nauseating. (See what I did there ;)). And like a scent you get noseblind too, I forgot how it ended within days of finishing it.

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White Ivy

White IvyWhite Ivy by Susie Yang
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Psychological thriller about class. Ivy was taught some dubious moral rationalizations growing up, an answer perhaps to the powerlessness of women, exacerbated by the Chinese culture her parents and grandmother came from. From an early age Ivy turns to the power she feels from taking things that she can't afford and that leads to using sex as tool to get things she wants as well. What she wants is more than money--its the power that comes from moving through the world as privileged. Perhaps she doesn't even recognize this as she is torn between two lovers, both rich but in very different ways. Yang has us tunnel deep into the psyche of Ivy and we can see how one rationalization builds on the others, and why she takes such drastic steps, and why she thinks she can get away with it. Reminds me of An American Tragedy by Dreiser.

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She saw clearly now that people could be divided into two categories; those who acted, and those who were acted upon

The Queen of Sugar Hill


The Queen of Sugar Hill: A Novel of Hattie McDanielThe Queen of Sugar Hill: A Novel of Hattie McDaniel by ReShonda Tate
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

What I liked about this historical novelization of Hattie McDaniel is that Tate allows us to see McDaniel in all the ups and downs. There are times when she seems a little unhinged, but by telling all that comes before, you can see that anyone would be at their limits--constantly being criticized for doing the one thing she loved and that she was revered for. This novel showed how those in the public eye often can not win--even before social media exacerbated it. I was a disappointed that so much of the novel felt like it was told in the passive voice. Much of it is a retelling or remembering of events and not the events themselves, which made it much less engaging than it could have been. It does improve as the novel goes on, but it took a bit of stamina to get there. Still, McDaniel's life illustrates that even famous actors have struggles--not being taken seriously because she was a woman, not respected because she was Black, being vilified because she didn't fit into a glamorous stereo-type, being taken advantage of because she was rich.

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Monday, September 15, 2025

We Cast a Shadow

 

We Cast a ShadowWe Cast a Shadow by Maurice Carlos Ruffin
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Ruffin does an ingenious job of talking about race in a way that transcends it in a remarkable way. First of all, by setting the book in a future time, Ruffin is able to manipulate the situation without blame, shame, defensiveness, or justification because the offenders don't exist (yet)--yet the circumstances are familiar enough that it allows for contemplation of how we are presently doing as a society (and individuals). Then, to drive home the ramifications of the result of subtle/ not so-subtle racism, he brings in the possibility of demelanization--an expensive medical procedure that removes pigment from the skin. The question of whether the narrator should subject his son to this and why lets the reader really empathize and question race in a new and personal way. I found this book under the category of funny stuff- and while there is humor, it was a profound, moving and tragic story. I thought it was brilliant.

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The act of observing rewrites reality.

A dark-skinned child can expect a life of diminished light.  This is truth anywhere in the world and throughout most of history. 

The Education of an Idealist

The Education of an Idealist: A MemoirThe Education of an Idealist: A Memoir by Samantha Power
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

This was an interesting reading experience for me. While well-written, I found Power to be intense, supercilious, and haughty. Yet she is fully aware of this--she corners influential people in audacious fashion to promote her agendas, she won't back down or curb her remonstrations, she never seemed to be able to just hang out--always debating issues or pushing a cause. I thought man, she would be hard to be friends with. But the more I read, the more I respected Power for her commitment, her desire to make a difference, and her laser-like focus to try to make the world better. Then I grew to admire her. I still think she would be a lot to handle--but we need people who are willing to look at hard issues and to do their best to understand them, and then do something about them. She is courageous, indomitable, and persistent and she encouraged me to look around and see how I can try to make the world within my sphere of influence better.

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If I end up not making it as a journalist, will something else I learn in the process make it worth trying?

The Strange Journey of Alice Pendlbury

The Strange Journey of Alice PendelburyThe Strange Journey of Alice Pendelbury by Marc Levy
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A thoroughly entertaining book. I felt as though I was watching an undiscovered Humphrey Bogart/ Audrey Hepburn classic--The setting of Turkey was fun, and just when you think you've got the ending figured out, there's more. Fun, light read.

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Thursday, August 14, 2025

The Whisper Network

 

Whisper NetworkWhisper Network by Chandler Baker
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A workplace drama that highlights the difficulties of working women, from being ignored and under appreciated, to double standards for behavior, to sexual harassment. This isn't a perfect book and it only identifies with women working in defined jobs, but I did love the way these women looked out and supported each other despite the ways they also let each other down. I loved that several perspectives were portrayed: a new mother, a single mother, wife as main wage-earner, woman working in manual labor job, etc. For the most part they were portrayed as liking their jobs, being competent, and professional, moral people, and still having to struggle for recognition, validation, and respect. The chorus that starts out several chapters was genius. It included us in the frustrations we experience, the unfairness we witness, the demands that are unique to females (including demands by other females) helping us to see how we are all in this together--helping and hurting each other. At one point one character tells another "When another woman offers to help you, you take it. You understand?" --underscoring Baker's point that when we as women help each other, we help ourselves. (Although this a working woman's issue book, I think working men should also read it, to help understand and empathize with their working women colleagues).

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There, There

 

There ThereThere There by Tommy Orange
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

A beautiful exploration into what it means to be Native American in a modern setting. At first I didn't realize that the individual stories were going to be tied together and characters were going to be followed throughout the book, since each chapter felt like a complete short story so I didn't track the characters like I should have to get the full complexity, and the relationships between the characters. Having so many characters allowed us to see so many different perspectives and histories--some grew up in the indigenous culture, others realized their roots later, others abandoned their culture, and others came to celebrate it. Perhaps with a re-read I will feel different, but I felt like maybe there were too many perspectives, and the focus got diluted. You see the ending coming, but it still is shocking, yet I wished for a bit more clarity in the end.

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Bad luck or just bad shit happening to you in life can make you secretly superstitious, can make you want to take back some sense of control.

Something was in her that came out, that seemed so creaturely, so grotesque yet magical, that the only readily available emotion she had for both occasions was shame, which led to secrecy in both cases.  Secrets lie through omission just like shame lies through secrecy. 

The Downstairs Girl

The Downstairs GirlThe Downstairs Girl by Stacey Lee
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Jo is an unusual heroine--a Chinese-American living in Atlanta at the cusp of the women's vote and Jim Crow laws. She is resourceful and observant, courageous and intelligent. During the course of the book she discovers hidden talents, hidden roots, and hidden love. Its a YA romance that also encourages standing up for what's right, and for others, and for yourself.

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It is better to look out a window than into a looking glass; otherwise all you see is yourself and what's behind you.

Wednesday, July 23, 2025

An American Marriage

 

An American MarriageAn American Marriage by Tayari Jones
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Although this book was borne out of a desire to expose the racial injustice that is still prevalent in America, it also does a good job of exposing the precarious nature of marriage, especially in a country where people choose their partners based on "love". Can love really transcend differences in traditions, social class, and value systems? Can it withstand distance, trauma, and tragedy? What do we withhold from our partners--is there room for any secrets both in the present and in the past? I enjoyed how Jones broke the narrative into the three main character's voices--each one pleading their case for the reader, the truth both ambiguous and changeable, each motivation justified and faulty.

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