The thing I love most about our subdivision is the running trail that circles the subdivision. If you run the complete loop, it comes out to about a 5K. At one point, the paved path becomes a dirt path that borders a lake. It's only about a quarter mile but I've had my fair share of adventures on it nonetheless.
I am not a fast runner but I compensate for my slowness in two ways. One, I wear fast clothes. You know, sweat wicking, slinky clothes that have racing stripes and swooshes. Two, I try to run at unpopular times, like say, 10 am or 1pm, so that I am the only runner out there. That way I won't be passed too often. I run as regularly as a SAHM with 4 kids can, and my times have slowly, (so slowly), but consistenly improved. I think I even convinced myself I wasn't so slow anymore until one Saturday when I broke one of my rules. I ran at the peak running hour for the weekend--9am.
I was pushing myself, running hard. I was sweaty and I could feel my form suffering. My hair was plastered to my face and I was making gasping noises. I was on the dirt path, rounding the lake. I knew I had less than a half mile and I was done with the run for the day. I fumbled with my mp3 player, trying to eek out some fortitude by amping up the beat, when from nowhere a runner side-stepped past me on the single-file path. Startled, I stumbled a little, and watched with dejection as toned, tan thighs and a perky pony tail bounced effortlessly past me.
I lurched awkwardly as I tried to answer with a burst of speed of my own, arms flailing, feet thudding, but it was pointless. I could have been standing still; the young runner steadily bounded from view. In a burst of recognition, I watched youth personified pass by me, without a look back, presumptuous and oblivious, now steadily receding from my grasp.
I sighed and resumed a joggers shuffle, ignoring pain in my knee, hip, and--was that a twinge in my back? My hips may have started their mid-life spread, age spots might be shadowing my face, my toddlers may have turned into teens, but I know my PR is still out there, and I have plenty of time to grab it. Youth may no longer be my adjective, but maturity has imbued me with tenacity and perseverance. I embrace this body with all its flaws and know that I have plenty of miles to wring out of it yet.