Thursday, March 11, 2021

The Prisoner of Zenda

 

The Prisoner of Zenda (The Ruritania Trilogy #2)The Prisoner of Zenda by Anthony Hope
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I found this little tale of doppelgängers, castles, kingdoms, fair maidens, and sword fighting to be ridiculously entertaining. Apparently, it gave rise to the idea of creating fictional lands for the setting. Which is a shame, since I would love to visit Ruritania. Written in 1894, it reads like at least 1920, and was absolutely charming.

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Bleak House

Bleak HouseBleak House by Charles Dickens
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Written 20 years after Nicholas Nickleby (the last Dickens I read), Dickens has improved enormously, and I get why he is a classic writer. Although inundated with a huge cast of characters, and revolving around a court case that no one understands, it still manages to be an intriguing tale. There is a lot you could dissect here, economics, law, feminism, social classes, love, power, family--it is 600 pages. But there are also mysteries, love letters, generous benefactors, eccentric characters, death (including the obligatory death of the urchin boy) and of course, spontaneous combustion. I don't know that I will ever love Dickens, but I have a healthy respect for him now.

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Smoke lowering down from chimney-pots, making a soft black drizzle, with flakes of soot in it as big as full-grown snowflakes—gone into mourning, one might imagine, for the death of the sun.

His throat, chin, and eyebrows were so frosted with white hairs and so gnarled with veins and puckered skin that he looked from his breast upward like some old root in a fall of snow.

The children tumbled about, and notched memoranda of their accidents in their legs, which were perfect little calendars of distress;

She regards a ghost as one of the privileges of the upper classes, a genteel distinction to which the common people have no claim.

“Nemo is Latin for no one.”

It must be a strange state, not merely to be told that I am scarcely human (as in the case of my offering myself for a witness), but to feel it of my own knowledge all my life! To see the horses, dogs, and cattle go by me and to know that in ignorance I belong to them and not to the superior beings in my shape, whose delicacy I offend!

The blinded oxen, over-goaded, over-driven, never guided, run into wrong places and are beaten out, and plunge red-eyed and foaming at stone walls, and often sorely hurt the innocent, and often sorely hurt themselves. Very like Jo and his order; very, very like!

that ghostly stories shall be told of the stain upon the floor, so easy to be covered,

There was a folding-window to the carriage-head, but I never closed it, for it seemed like shutting out hope.


The Hypnotist's Love Story

 

The Hypnotist's Love StoryThe Hypnotist's Love Story by Liane Moriarty
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Moriarty does beach reads with a nice deep thoughtfulness to them. Disguised as a love story with a stalker, it explores all the ways we hold on to past relationships, and how that can hinder our current ones. Also, mourning is socially acceptable, but stalking is not, though there can be little difference.

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Wednesday, March 3, 2021

Loitering

 

Loitering: New & Collected EssaysLoitering: New & Collected Essays by Charles D'Ambrosio
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I'm bumping this up to 3 stars, just because under all D'Ambrosio's pomp, there are nuggets of insight. I'm coming to find that a collection of essays can let you know more about an author than a memoir. These essays reveal a man who carries around a pretentious know-it-all under the guise of a Luddite who wears corduroy and is equally inept at camping. Mostly I think it is his vocabulary--which he more than critiques in others, so I feel is fair game. I constantly had to look up words, but when I did, they were "antiquated" or "uncommon", meaning--does he just read old 17th century books? Or maybe the trusty thesaurus was just too handy? He uses the conjunction "qua" in two of his essays. Seriously, who uses "qua"? If you can wade through the heavy-handed vocabulary, he does make some perceptive observations about history, grief, time, suicide, and literature. Also, the cover is very cool.

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in a sense we truly have history only insofar as it’s shared, and too much uniqueness really leads away from individuality to anonymity, the great sea of the forgotten.

I suppose it could also be said we’re known to the extent that we’re dull and orbital about our life, that what’s quotidian about us is more easily shared than the exuberances and passions that push us out of the predictable.

he’s mostly a misanthrope and a sentimentalist (how often those things go together!),

Randall Jarrell once wrote that even in the Golden Age people were always griping about how everything looked yellow; all our hopes elude us.

Just as shadows fall across lives, history falls across cultures. Things unravel never to reknit again

It’s always been a fond Western dream, after all the blood and pavement and franchising, to undo the whole sorry business and begin again.

“Relation is a mathematical notion which means one-to-one correspondence.”

Brick is relocated earth,

they wanted antiques without time.

Many of these gamblers were afraid of the past, haunted by it, and this tilted their faith in the direction of fate, a less ample, less accommodating idea.

As long as you could fall farther you distinguished yourself from the fallen.

anxiety has no object; in fact, it tries to become fear because fear has a definite object that can be faced with courage.

The absence of “real” money, flat money, is essentially the absence of a future. Not that the boys lack one—rather, possible futures never enter into their calculations; a cigarette equals pleasure, not the hoarding of deferred possibilities.

Is it size alone that accounts for the blurring of identity in a big family? The fact that you grow up crowded into the same bathroom, brushing your teeth in front of a mirror that has three or four other foamy white grins reflecting back at you—is that it?

suicide: that it’s always accompanied by some shift away from life’s normal priority, where it’s perfectly natural and expected that you’d defend yourself from danger, to a condition where you give up, defenseless, or even join in on the attack.

Is silence for a writer tantamount to suicide?

The belief in a single Truth leads to doubt about everything.

It is nonsense to say that God fills the gap; He doesn’t fill it, but on the contrary, He keeps it empty and so helps us to keep alive our former communion with each other, even at the cost of pain.

This seemed a crude and retrogressive project, since what really distinguishes us from apes is not the opposable thumb but the ability to hold in mind opposing ideas, a distinction we should probably try to preserve.

Whereas prison, well, what is it, really? A shortage of space compensated for by an excess of time.

This picture [of a man jumping/falling from the Twin Towers during 9/11] also brings us to a prison, one without a shortage of space; in fact, there’s a sudden, horrifying excess, a terrible liberation, with time in short supply.

If what distinguishes us from other members of the animal kingdom is speech, then literature—and poetry in particular, being the highest form of locution—is, to put it bluntly, the goal of our species.—Joseph Brodsky


A Spark of Light



A Spark of LightA Spark of Light by Jodi Picoult
My rating: 2 of 5 stars

I get that Picoult is trying to look at the issue of abortion from all different angles, and I think it is an important topic to consider from different lights, because it is a complicated issue. But I don't like the format of going backwards--it created a lot of repetition and some time line difficulties. Also, it was hard to remember how everything ended up for everybody by the end of the book. It diffused any sense of propulsion and I found it hard to motivate myself to keep reading. I also think there were too many characters. I get there are a lot of perspectives on this subject but the sheer number of characters kept us from really deep diving into any of them, and they all remained surface characters. Maybe that is why I didn't like any of these characters. I also felt that all anti-abortionists in this book were judgmental and absolute, while the pro-choice characters were willing to be understanding and tolerant. I think both sets of characteristics can be found in both sides. It's a good book to start a conversation and I thoroughly enjoyed the discussion in our book club, but as a book to just read, it didn't work for me.

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But there were those who believed if you do not name a thing, it ceases to exist, and so its title was amputated, like a war injury.

Were some betrayals kinder than others?

Did you have to be missed to exist?

A rush of calcium at the moment caused zinc to be released from the egg.  As the zinc burst out, it attached itself to small, fluorescent molecules: the spark that was picked up by camera microscopes.

Mischling

 

MischlingMischling by Affinity Konar
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

If a Danse Macabre could be written in words, this would be it. Telling the story of twin children and other genetic anomalies (dwarfism, albinism) that were sorted from concentration camps and used as experiments, this is far from an easy book to read. However, Konar uses such beautiful language and arresting images to portray these horrifics that at times you almost forget what she is describing. The tortures described are sometimes fantastic, and you can't help but wonder if they are based on fact--and then you realize that of course they are. The reunions and miracles that occur seem almost as fantastic, and easier to discount. But rather than discredit them, I chose to believe that if such atrocities could be real, so could these moments of hope. This story ends not with the liberation of Auschwitz, but goes on to describe the many months these refugees endured trying to find loved ones, and make their way to somewhere safe--a part that many stories leave out. Books of the holocaust are not easy to read, but I think we can learn from the strength of the sufferers and gain a determination to stop such cruelty wherever we find it.

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My letters were growing angry and their lack of signature was erasing me.  No one was counting bits of me in the laboratory anymore.  No one was totting up pieces of me.  I did not know if this was because the doctor told people not to or because the best part of me was gone.

Because I had it still, that wild hope; it was as steady as a spines and so pronounced I marveled. that the nurses and technicians did not take note of this development within me and mark it on their charts.

isn't evil a form of stupidity?

Those stars, they knew what suffering and renewal meant, they were forged from collapse and dust and fire.

the burden saved you, he finally said, until you had a moment to examine it, to feel, for once, its full weight.


Tuesday, March 2, 2021

dust

 Dust that fuzzes the edges

A great detritus fog

Made up of hair & skin & dandruff & powdered sweat & nubs from blue sweaters & sloughed mud from trainers worn when it rained & pollen from a mountain hike to Looking Glass Falls where ox-eyed daises rigidly rocked as if uprooting themselves to stalk after you--

Pieces of you attract and collect to your abandoned surfaces

As if it could proliferate thick enough to claim the matter as its own

As if you wanted to stay all along.


Those precocious motes dance

dizzy in the sun

like echos of your soul and 

trace the erratic trajectory of your 

travels in the shadows.


Let the dust nest in my brain

Let it choke my lungs

Let it mold its exoskeleton around me

Let all your pieces become my peace.